Dear Dad....

Dear Dad,

Oh how I've missed you! I wish I could sit with you today. I wish I could hear you speak to me and make me laugh.
Some days it seems like yesterday and others, it feels like forever since we've talked.

If I could sit with you today and talk I would tell you how very much I love you. I would hold your hand and make sure you knew how good it feels to just BE with you. I would tell you about the crazy year I've had since you left. I would show you pictures of your new grand daughters that will hopefully be coming home SOON. I would tell you all about "B" and how spunky she is and how she giggles, and
then there is "T" just as sweet as she can be....I would tell you all about our trip to Africa and how it felt to hold them in my arms,I know you would really have loved them! I would tell you that I took you with me in my heart. I will make sure that "T" and "B" know who their Papa was and how he will meet them in Heaven someday...

I would get you all caught up on the boys, Alex graduated from Geneseo, you would have been SO proud! I took you there too. Alex is searching for his place
in this world and I know he loves and misses you very much. Zach graduated high school last June...I could almost feel your presence as we watched him get his diploma, I know you were there. Zach got a full time job and he is pursuing his tattoo career, he is very talented. Zach has grown SO much, he reminds a lot of you, he has some of your mannerisms, he uses his middle finger to dial his phone ( I am sure he has used it for other things too) LOL The other day he came in late, but had this smirk on his face, as I looked at him, I saw you and my heart leaped inside me. Zach drew a portrait of you, it is amazing! And then there is Caban! he has changed SO much...He is tall and his voice has changed. He just finished his freshman year and he is doing great. Caban wants to be a Police Officer or FBI Agent, he is in the County Sheriff's Explorer program and loving it. He has also been talking about going into the Marines! and that scares me! You would really get a kick out of them! The boys really miss you Dad.

I would talk with you about my childhood and make sure you know, that I know how much you loved me. I would tell you that I wished we spent more time together, I wish we would have gone on that beach vacation we were always talking about! I would tell you how grateful I am for having you for my Dad! I would tell you that
we have been celebrating your memory with Aunt Diane and her family....I know that you are there too...

Oh what I would give for one more day, one more hour but... I know, that I know, that I know, I WILL see you again....Happy Father's Day Dad I love you and I know you are always with me....